To start off, the past two days were not as i expected. I thought we had things going along pretty well and it did. But who could've figured a simple yes or no question resulted in a heated arguement. You know what, i think you're a deluded individual that's too stubborn for your own good. The difference between us is that although i do long and am still somehow 'waiting' but i don't cross out all my other options. If i do chance upon someone i fancy (fyi, that's you) and things really do work out, it'll be like killing two birds with one stone. (this is as selfish as it sounds. but hey, that's love) Whereas for you, you choose not to move on. Please, i've been there done that. I've been a sucker for way too long and noway am i gonna be an emotional wreck anymore. Wait till this emotional rollercoaster ride drags on for more than a year, then the best option is to find another.
Honestly, half a year isn't a short period of time and i wasn't ready to let go just yet. I was really contented at the way things were. You were never 'just one of those guys' to me. Everything ended too abruptly and reality is setting in on me. I can't say i'm not affected but it'll pass.


-i wish i never did come clean to you