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hey bitches. stop bitching bout my previous entry.

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I havent been blogging but here are some pictures from last week's partyin at phuture and zouk out. This week on, i'm gonna work as hard as i can. I wanna earn lots and lots of $$. haha. random.

I'm so not in the holiday mood. Actually i've not been in the holiday mood since you left. Damn, the 'i want you back A' emo-mo-mo is relapsing again. Oh well, i'm always having these relapses. What's new Leona Tan. Anyway Sarah dear, it's normal to cry once in a blue moon. It happens to me too. We'll get through it together just like before alright. <3>A, I HOPE YOU ARE NOT SERIOUS WITH HER! YOU JOLLY WELL KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU THE MOST AND YOU'D BETTER STILL LOVE ME THE MOST! (as childish as it sounds, i hafta let it out)

call me?!

Just so you know, i miss you like crazy crazy. 4 days and counting. Seriously, will you ever call me again? It's just not the same not having to recieve your phone calls everyday and night. It's been an everyday routine, a habit. Feels like i left some part of me behind, somehow feels incomplete. Not having you is making me want you more. i guess it's just human nature, you'll only want something when you can't get it.

I'm so not looking forward to christmas and new year. =(

Goodbye to the both of you.

whatever

will my heart still reach you
will you still give me a chance
will sparks fly over and over again for us
will i still melt you
will you be the one for me once again
will i still be your only one
will you take my hand again and never let me go
will you still love me always and not just tomorrow

If i could make a deal with God; still ain't no other man but you.

So i've made up my mind to make the first move. I don't know how to begin but yeah, i'll find my ways.
This is a first, god help me. Let the outcome be good! =)
Out with the old, in with the new. It's something i'll try to keep in mind.
Anyway, i'm so waiting for zouk out to happen!! Be there or be square. ha!

yippie

Tomorrow's finally friday! I've been msging you faithfully everynight without fail, despite knowing that you'll only see it tomorrow. Well, i really hope things will look up between us.
So for now, yeah, i guess i'm kinda excited to see you. haha.

Went phuturing yesterday. Managed to persuade darling sann to come. =) I had a blast at rach's place. Rach, sann and i took a hell load of pictures and videos. haha. Multi purpose stick-on bra was our main source of entertainment. (too bad it's only sticky on one side) The next time i club, i'm gonna do the leggy dance that sann taught us. hahaha.

-I'm making the same mistake twice, i love you and it's a gamble i'm willing to take. I've already thrown out the dice.

Last week went pretty well. I'm happy. =)
I see a lovely start, although it might still seem a lil cloudy.


If you want me to stay, i'll never leave.
(don't you dare leave me too)

m o r n i n g

I woke up missing you today.
I miss waking up beside you.

I miss you
I miss you're smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though we're different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you

Why can't i stop having these occasional
miss you/need you/want you/never stop loving you mood swings.
The truth is, i still can't let you go and i have never stopped loving you or caring for you. I should've never taken you for granted when what we had was more than love.
I hate the aftermath of falling in and out of love.

Anyway, i'm off to shop-ping with my bro later.
Materialistic indulgence = happier me

sick

I'm too sick to function. =(
Today i woke up with absolutely no mood for anything so zouking was totally not on my list of 'things-to-do'.
*ww, we'll meet in our dreams tonight alright? Dirty or not dirty. ;)

Anyway i met up with Anna and Tiffy in the evening at tampines mall to do some catching up. It was GOOD. =) More to come pls! (sandra lim & sarah lek, pls meet up soon and do some catching up with me!)
Then Tiffy and i headed down to coco to meet *ww. According to ah hong it was a NTU, NUS, SMU halloween party, but apparently he is so NOT a reliable source! When we got there, all we could see were ang moh's, ang moh's and more ang moh's! wtf! Totally outnumbered. The whole club was flooded with them. So we decided to give coco a miss and headed down to geylang for dim sum. Then *ww gave us a tour around the red-light district cause he kinda 'know' the place well. =/ (not a very proud thing to announce)
Having done all that walking, we took a cab down to marina south to play arcade, bowling and pool. It was fun. I WON *WW IN POOL, 2-1! heh.
Oh, throughout our entire 'outing' mr*ww would not stop making fun of me! Omagad! Ok, i admit that i started it first but damn, i wished i wouldn't have opened my darn mouth. So now i'm FAT, A LOSER, PETTY, NOT FEMININE,etc... The best part is he can confidently tell Tiffy that when we get home, i'm gonna jeebber jabber at him non-stop. Fortunately for him, the minute we got home, that smarty pants put on his best act and pleaded for forgiveness. He's sucha baby i swear! Urghhh!

Halloween madness!

I'm supposedly a 'dead school girl'. =/ I guess i'm too alive to be dead that night.
Halloween at zouk was a blast. Almost had to give zouk a miss and head down to MOS instead due to my ever so 'popular' outfit accompanied by my worn out slippers. ha!
Thank god for Mr 'nicest butch bouncer ever' who told that stupid strict door BITCH to close an eye.
Next year, i'll definitely rent a costume. Right tiffy? =)

i'm a faithful lover =)

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything! You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

It’s too late now, still I’ve got something to say
I’m sorry that I treated you that way
Time has gone now, and the moment has passed
When I had the chance to try and make us last
All alone now, and it’s no one’s fault by mine
Couldn’t see the truth, I had those blinded eyes
You have moved on, still I don’t give a damn
Gotta get this off my chest while I can
How I need you more and more will you come back to me please
Every single hour of every single day, I miss you more and more
Don’t know what to say
I Know I closed the door, You’re gone and on your way
But now, I need you, I need you
Wanna take it back to the day when we first met
If I could, I’d start all over again
Our love is My Regret
Should have known then, what I know now
Dying every second that you’re not around
Should have been there, when you needed me
Now I’m by myself, on my bended knees
Should have loved you, while I had the chance to
Couldn’t realize that you were the truth
Should have shown you, what you meant to me
Baby now I see, that you were my everything.

I think all lizards should DIE

My highlight of the day; I SAW A FUCKING LIZARD CRAWLING INTO MY HOUSE!!
I was so friggin scared that i almost bit my finger off. Clumsily, i ran pass my front door and into my maid's room to wake her up. Apparently, she's scared of lizards too. Damn! But i don't care, that darn lizard has to die!!! So she bravely used her slippers to kill that god forsaken lizard. yay! now that deserves a clap and a pat on her back. =) Now i'm able to sleep in peace.

Anyway, Tiffy darling stayed over yesterday. Supposed to watch miami vice together but she ended up sleeping on the couch half way through. =/ Guess we'll just hafta postpone our dvd marathon night.

You said she's just a friend, but it's a frigging lie. I know i shouldn't even care or meddle in your affairs anymore but somehow there's a part of me that will hold on to you forever. Forever might not be the word, but it's been so long and you're still constantly on my mind which makes it seem like 'forever'. Although i'm emotionally numb to everything and had just about enough of you, i can't seem to give up.
Maybe it's my kharma. I know throughout our relationship you gave me unconditional love and i took you for granted, but i think my kharma's gotta end now. It's been a year and my heart's still with you.
My regret/mistake - Loving you or taking you for granted, i don't know.
If this is 'Love', i would love 'Love' to leave me alone.

//will you love me like yesterday again and never let me go?

Bored = ME

WIL'S SURPRISE BIRTHDAY PARTY.

I'm home on a friday night and i'm bored outta my wits! Thank god for Leon lee and his super nonsense yet entertaining conversation. I miss that sng buay face and our sng buay days. Not forgetting our juicy gooooosipppsss!=)

I love and you lie. what have become of you? says:
i thought you died
death. says:
sad ah you?
I love and you lie. what have become of you? says:
no la y?
death. says:
i die you not sad/
death. says:
SMLJ!
I love and you lie. what have become of you? says:
whats smlj?
death. says:
simi lan jiao. i'll seriously spank you lor.
I love and you lie. what have become of you? says:
hahahahhaa ok la damn sad can
death. says:
haha! almost forget me lor you.
I love and you lie. what have become of you? says:
no! YOU HAVE FORGOTTEN ALL ABOUT ME!
death. says:
leona tan.
death. says:
the hottest bitch on earth, how to forgeT?
I love and you lie. what have become of you? says:
THANKS i knew it! hahaha
I love and you lie. what have become of you? says:
when are you coming back?!
death. says:
SECRET.
death. says:
just promise to make time for me and promise not to break that promise.
I love and you lie. what have become of you? says:
I PROMISE!!!

HE TAUGHT ME A NEW WORD, BULLSPIT. HOW CUTE IS THAT?!

life's a bitch, so am i.

Tripping over myself, going no where.
Waiting, suffocating, no direction, i took a dive in.
I've been wondering why, it's only me.
Have you always been inside waiting to breathe.
It's alright, sunlight on my face.
I wake up and yeah, i'm alive, 'cause on the way down i saw you & you saved me from myself & i won't forget the way you loved me.

I won't forget the way you loved me.

I totally screwed up last night. As usual, Leona was pissed drunk. Wobbled around phuture, almost caused a fight, slept outside my doorstep, couldn't even bathe properly.
My mum said i'm an embarrassment to my family and i'm grounded. hurray for me.
I spent the whole of today just thinking, if only i could turn back time then all these wouldn't have happened. If only i could just know my limits, then i wouldn't have drank so much. The thing about me is that when i'm high, i simply do not know my limits so i continue drinking till i'm wasted. If only *you were still here to look after me like how you used to, when i'm dead drunk and i can't even stand straight, you'll be there to bathe me and tuck me in nicely to bed.
I seriously think i'm a screw up and i'm only good at embarrassing myself.
Time to wake up and kick all that bad habits.
No more obsessive drinking, no more frequent clubbing, no more, no more, no more!
Now lets drink to that. haha.

moody toody me

It's one of those days that you don't wanna do anything except just staying at home and nwahhhh in front of the tv.
I've been watching The Hills for like 3 hours straight! Gawd! I'm feeling so fucking irritated now.

It's been almost 3 months and i'm still left hanging. I hate this feeling, ALOT!
YOU should just know who's good for you and who's not. I totally understand what you're going through right now and i've told you many times that i'll be there for you, but i still need some assurance from you. fuckfuckfuck.
I'm not gonna bother or think about it anymore.

Somehow when thing's are not going the way i want us to be, i tend to fall back on *you.
I know i shouldn't be feeling this way but i can't help it. I miss *you still but i only can look back on our past.
The love between us has died but *you still occupy a place in my heart.

Sharing is caring.
Therefor, bitching about other sluts means we care for our friends. =)
OMG! Darling Sann just linked me the blog's of 2 sluts.
The first slut has body odour, looks like a man and no fucking idea who the fuck she's messing with.
(Excuse me miss BO, the next time you try to fuck a man, MAKE DAMN SURE HE ISN'T MY ANDREW KOH.)
The other slut fantasizes bout other people boyfriends(boys that will NEVER lay eyes on her), think she's some hot chick that has what it takes to seduce every man she desires(my poor STEWPID e**** was one of her victim) and she so happen to look like a man too.

Anyway, my darling Tiffy came over and it's gonna be dvd night for us! yay!




/I still do miss you, but this time i'm missing not one but two/

don't tell me

Please think it through, have a lil faith in me.
You mean alot to me and i'll do anything to set things right.
I know you have been trying and so have i, but sometimes temptation gets the better of me.
You might say there's no excuse and you wouldn't do the same, but this is different.
Trust me, i'm not that kinda girl and i'm certainly not like her.
Try to understand me like how i've been trying to understand you.
I'm sorry, leave this behind and start over?
Things have been going great for us, please don't give up now.
I knew the mistake i was making but only until now, i truly regret.
I don't wanna lose you, my heart's set on you.

Cause if you were my best friend, I want you 'round all the time(I want you 'round me baby)
Can I be your best friend, I promise boy you'll be mine(Oooh baby be mine)
I said he's just a friend, baby it's not pretend
Either he is or he ain't my man, I said he's just a friend
You said that I could call you whenever I needed someone to listen to me
That's why I'm here standin by your side cause you always come through for me
So many others tried to be where you are but they just wanted to do me
Glad you took your time and now I'm satisfied that's why I want you all to me
We been better than friends, for a long time
Ain't no need to pretend, you'll always be mine

50 cent feat. olivia - Bestfriend

Please don't take my sunshine away

You still never fail to put a smile on my face, but this time i've gotta admit that i went overboard.
It was nice while it lasted, now i'm faced with regrets.

MY sexy army boy

I'm supposed to be asleep by now. 5 more hours till wild wild wet!!!
I swear i'm gonna wake up late again, as usual.
Leona what, 10 million miss calls and she's still soundly asleep. =)
Anyway, was in town in the evening to meet darling anna.
Then came my army boy looking ever so sexy in his uniform. I so cannot believe he actually wore his uniform to town! silly boy.
Still handsome la, even when you're bald and smelly alright? LOVE LOVE LOVE.
Drop 20 ON me now! ;)

I hope we'll remain this way, if not better.
No more attitude swings, petty arguements, silly sarcasm, etc..

we're secretly in love