yummy

Highlight of the night!

Guess who i spoke to? Mr mark owsky!! amagad!!! He's still as cute as ever, with or without his specs!! After 2 and a half years and he's still looking good. yummilicious! I can't keep my friggin eye's off him!

-boy you've got me lifted shifted higher than the ceiling, oohh wee it's the ultimate feeling. Sugarrrr how you get so fly?

MONEY IN MY POCKET

It's all about the ka-ching now babeh. work work work my fuckin ass off. alright, that's a lil exaggerating. haha But i'm gonna try to be 'hard working' and earn me some money to go on a shopaliday. (thats short for shopping&holiday)

Baby, we'll go bankok together alright?! Ooohh! i can't wait! Speaking of bangkok, mr E here is going bangkok this friday. Leaving me alone for christmas. As if working on christmas eve and christmas day isn't bad enough. To top it off, that asshooeee is going with some girls! and apparently one of which who's called SALLY is his loyal fan. Argh! Whateverrr. Mr E, you'd better be good. Or else, no amount of love can save you.

On a lighter note, things have been going rather well for me and for us. I hope it'll stay that way. and as for A the arsehole, your birthday's round the corner. I'm contemplating as to whether i should wish you or not. You know, you can really make me hate you yet love you at the same time. But you should know i'll stick with love.

bloop bloop

hey bitches. stop bitching bout my previous entry.

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I havent been blogging but here are some pictures from last week's partyin at phuture and zouk out. This week on, i'm gonna work as hard as i can. I wanna earn lots and lots of $$. haha. random.

I'm so not in the holiday mood. Actually i've not been in the holiday mood since you left. Damn, the 'i want you back A' emo-mo-mo is relapsing again. Oh well, i'm always having these relapses. What's new Leona Tan. Anyway Sarah dear, it's normal to cry once in a blue moon. It happens to me too. We'll get through it together just like before alright. <3>A, I HOPE YOU ARE NOT SERIOUS WITH HER! YOU JOLLY WELL KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU THE MOST AND YOU'D BETTER STILL LOVE ME THE MOST! (as childish as it sounds, i hafta let it out)

call me?!

Just so you know, i miss you like crazy crazy. 4 days and counting. Seriously, will you ever call me again? It's just not the same not having to recieve your phone calls everyday and night. It's been an everyday routine, a habit. Feels like i left some part of me behind, somehow feels incomplete. Not having you is making me want you more. i guess it's just human nature, you'll only want something when you can't get it.

I'm so not looking forward to christmas and new year. =(

Goodbye to the both of you.

whatever

will my heart still reach you
will you still give me a chance
will sparks fly over and over again for us
will i still melt you
will you be the one for me once again
will i still be your only one
will you take my hand again and never let me go
will you still love me always and not just tomorrow

If i could make a deal with God; still ain't no other man but you.

So i've made up my mind to make the first move. I don't know how to begin but yeah, i'll find my ways.
This is a first, god help me. Let the outcome be good! =)
Out with the old, in with the new. It's something i'll try to keep in mind.
Anyway, i'm so waiting for zouk out to happen!! Be there or be square. ha!

yippie

Tomorrow's finally friday! I've been msging you faithfully everynight without fail, despite knowing that you'll only see it tomorrow. Well, i really hope things will look up between us.
So for now, yeah, i guess i'm kinda excited to see you. haha.

Went phuturing yesterday. Managed to persuade darling sann to come. =) I had a blast at rach's place. Rach, sann and i took a hell load of pictures and videos. haha. Multi purpose stick-on bra was our main source of entertainment. (too bad it's only sticky on one side) The next time i club, i'm gonna do the leggy dance that sann taught us. hahaha.

-I'm making the same mistake twice, i love you and it's a gamble i'm willing to take. I've already thrown out the dice.

Last week went pretty well. I'm happy. =)
I see a lovely start, although it might still seem a lil cloudy.


If you want me to stay, i'll never leave.
(don't you dare leave me too)

m o r n i n g

I woke up missing you today.
I miss waking up beside you.

I miss you
I miss you're smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though we're different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you

Why can't i stop having these occasional
miss you/need you/want you/never stop loving you mood swings.
The truth is, i still can't let you go and i have never stopped loving you or caring for you. I should've never taken you for granted when what we had was more than love.
I hate the aftermath of falling in and out of love.

Anyway, i'm off to shop-ping with my bro later.
Materialistic indulgence = happier me

sick

I'm too sick to function. =(
Today i woke up with absolutely no mood for anything so zouking was totally not on my list of 'things-to-do'.
*ww, we'll meet in our dreams tonight alright? Dirty or not dirty. ;)

Anyway i met up with Anna and Tiffy in the evening at tampines mall to do some catching up. It was GOOD. =) More to come pls! (sandra lim & sarah lek, pls meet up soon and do some catching up with me!)
Then Tiffy and i headed down to coco to meet *ww. According to ah hong it was a NTU, NUS, SMU halloween party, but apparently he is so NOT a reliable source! When we got there, all we could see were ang moh's, ang moh's and more ang moh's! wtf! Totally outnumbered. The whole club was flooded with them. So we decided to give coco a miss and headed down to geylang for dim sum. Then *ww gave us a tour around the red-light district cause he kinda 'know' the place well. =/ (not a very proud thing to announce)
Having done all that walking, we took a cab down to marina south to play arcade, bowling and pool. It was fun. I WON *WW IN POOL, 2-1! heh.
Oh, throughout our entire 'outing' mr*ww would not stop making fun of me! Omagad! Ok, i admit that i started it first but damn, i wished i wouldn't have opened my darn mouth. So now i'm FAT, A LOSER, PETTY, NOT FEMININE,etc... The best part is he can confidently tell Tiffy that when we get home, i'm gonna jeebber jabber at him non-stop. Fortunately for him, the minute we got home, that smarty pants put on his best act and pleaded for forgiveness. He's sucha baby i swear! Urghhh!

Halloween madness!

I'm supposedly a 'dead school girl'. =/ I guess i'm too alive to be dead that night.
Halloween at zouk was a blast. Almost had to give zouk a miss and head down to MOS instead due to my ever so 'popular' outfit accompanied by my worn out slippers. ha!
Thank god for Mr 'nicest butch bouncer ever' who told that stupid strict door BITCH to close an eye.
Next year, i'll definitely rent a costume. Right tiffy? =)

i'm a faithful lover =)

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything! You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

It’s too late now, still I’ve got something to say
I’m sorry that I treated you that way
Time has gone now, and the moment has passed
When I had the chance to try and make us last
All alone now, and it’s no one’s fault by mine
Couldn’t see the truth, I had those blinded eyes
You have moved on, still I don’t give a damn
Gotta get this off my chest while I can
How I need you more and more will you come back to me please
Every single hour of every single day, I miss you more and more
Don’t know what to say
I Know I closed the door, You’re gone and on your way
But now, I need you, I need you
Wanna take it back to the day when we first met
If I could, I’d start all over again
Our love is My Regret
Should have known then, what I know now
Dying every second that you’re not around
Should have been there, when you needed me
Now I’m by myself, on my bended knees
Should have loved you, while I had the chance to
Couldn’t realize that you were the truth
Should have shown you, what you meant to me
Baby now I see, that you were my everything.

I think all lizards should DIE

My highlight of the day; I SAW A FUCKING LIZARD CRAWLING INTO MY HOUSE!!
I was so friggin scared that i almost bit my finger off. Clumsily, i ran pass my front door and into my maid's room to wake her up. Apparently, she's scared of lizards too. Damn! But i don't care, that darn lizard has to die!!! So she bravely used her slippers to kill that god forsaken lizard. yay! now that deserves a clap and a pat on her back. =) Now i'm able to sleep in peace.

Anyway, Tiffy darling stayed over yesterday. Supposed to watch miami vice together but she ended up sleeping on the couch half way through. =/ Guess we'll just hafta postpone our dvd marathon night.

You said she's just a friend, but it's a frigging lie. I know i shouldn't even care or meddle in your affairs anymore but somehow there's a part of me that will hold on to you forever. Forever might not be the word, but it's been so long and you're still constantly on my mind which makes it seem like 'forever'. Although i'm emotionally numb to everything and had just about enough of you, i can't seem to give up.
Maybe it's my kharma. I know throughout our relationship you gave me unconditional love and i took you for granted, but i think my kharma's gotta end now. It's been a year and my heart's still with you.
My regret/mistake - Loving you or taking you for granted, i don't know.
If this is 'Love', i would love 'Love' to leave me alone.

//will you love me like yesterday again and never let me go?

Bored = ME

WIL'S SURPRISE BIRTHDAY PARTY.

I'm home on a friday night and i'm bored outta my wits! Thank god for Leon lee and his super nonsense yet entertaining conversation. I miss that sng buay face and our sng buay days. Not forgetting our juicy gooooosipppsss!=)

I love and you lie. what have become of you? says:
i thought you died
death. says:
sad ah you?
I love and you lie. what have become of you? says:
no la y?
death. says:
i die you not sad/
death. says:
SMLJ!
I love and you lie. what have become of you? says:
whats smlj?
death. says:
simi lan jiao. i'll seriously spank you lor.
I love and you lie. what have become of you? says:
hahahahhaa ok la damn sad can
death. says:
haha! almost forget me lor you.
I love and you lie. what have become of you? says:
no! YOU HAVE FORGOTTEN ALL ABOUT ME!
death. says:
leona tan.
death. says:
the hottest bitch on earth, how to forgeT?
I love and you lie. what have become of you? says:
THANKS i knew it! hahaha
I love and you lie. what have become of you? says:
when are you coming back?!
death. says:
SECRET.
death. says:
just promise to make time for me and promise not to break that promise.
I love and you lie. what have become of you? says:
I PROMISE!!!

HE TAUGHT ME A NEW WORD, BULLSPIT. HOW CUTE IS THAT?!

life's a bitch, so am i.

Tripping over myself, going no where.
Waiting, suffocating, no direction, i took a dive in.
I've been wondering why, it's only me.
Have you always been inside waiting to breathe.
It's alright, sunlight on my face.
I wake up and yeah, i'm alive, 'cause on the way down i saw you & you saved me from myself & i won't forget the way you loved me.

I won't forget the way you loved me.

I totally screwed up last night. As usual, Leona was pissed drunk. Wobbled around phuture, almost caused a fight, slept outside my doorstep, couldn't even bathe properly.
My mum said i'm an embarrassment to my family and i'm grounded. hurray for me.
I spent the whole of today just thinking, if only i could turn back time then all these wouldn't have happened. If only i could just know my limits, then i wouldn't have drank so much. The thing about me is that when i'm high, i simply do not know my limits so i continue drinking till i'm wasted. If only *you were still here to look after me like how you used to, when i'm dead drunk and i can't even stand straight, you'll be there to bathe me and tuck me in nicely to bed.
I seriously think i'm a screw up and i'm only good at embarrassing myself.
Time to wake up and kick all that bad habits.
No more obsessive drinking, no more frequent clubbing, no more, no more, no more!
Now lets drink to that. haha.

moody toody me

It's one of those days that you don't wanna do anything except just staying at home and nwahhhh in front of the tv.
I've been watching The Hills for like 3 hours straight! Gawd! I'm feeling so fucking irritated now.

It's been almost 3 months and i'm still left hanging. I hate this feeling, ALOT!
YOU should just know who's good for you and who's not. I totally understand what you're going through right now and i've told you many times that i'll be there for you, but i still need some assurance from you. fuckfuckfuck.
I'm not gonna bother or think about it anymore.

Somehow when thing's are not going the way i want us to be, i tend to fall back on *you.
I know i shouldn't be feeling this way but i can't help it. I miss *you still but i only can look back on our past.
The love between us has died but *you still occupy a place in my heart.

Sharing is caring.
Therefor, bitching about other sluts means we care for our friends. =)
OMG! Darling Sann just linked me the blog's of 2 sluts.
The first slut has body odour, looks like a man and no fucking idea who the fuck she's messing with.
(Excuse me miss BO, the next time you try to fuck a man, MAKE DAMN SURE HE ISN'T MY ANDREW KOH.)
The other slut fantasizes bout other people boyfriends(boys that will NEVER lay eyes on her), think she's some hot chick that has what it takes to seduce every man she desires(my poor STEWPID e**** was one of her victim) and she so happen to look like a man too.

Anyway, my darling Tiffy came over and it's gonna be dvd night for us! yay!




/I still do miss you, but this time i'm missing not one but two/

don't tell me

Please think it through, have a lil faith in me.
You mean alot to me and i'll do anything to set things right.
I know you have been trying and so have i, but sometimes temptation gets the better of me.
You might say there's no excuse and you wouldn't do the same, but this is different.
Trust me, i'm not that kinda girl and i'm certainly not like her.
Try to understand me like how i've been trying to understand you.
I'm sorry, leave this behind and start over?
Things have been going great for us, please don't give up now.
I knew the mistake i was making but only until now, i truly regret.
I don't wanna lose you, my heart's set on you.

Cause if you were my best friend, I want you 'round all the time(I want you 'round me baby)
Can I be your best friend, I promise boy you'll be mine(Oooh baby be mine)
I said he's just a friend, baby it's not pretend
Either he is or he ain't my man, I said he's just a friend
You said that I could call you whenever I needed someone to listen to me
That's why I'm here standin by your side cause you always come through for me
So many others tried to be where you are but they just wanted to do me
Glad you took your time and now I'm satisfied that's why I want you all to me
We been better than friends, for a long time
Ain't no need to pretend, you'll always be mine

50 cent feat. olivia - Bestfriend

Please don't take my sunshine away

You still never fail to put a smile on my face, but this time i've gotta admit that i went overboard.
It was nice while it lasted, now i'm faced with regrets.

MY sexy army boy

I'm supposed to be asleep by now. 5 more hours till wild wild wet!!!
I swear i'm gonna wake up late again, as usual.
Leona what, 10 million miss calls and she's still soundly asleep. =)
Anyway, was in town in the evening to meet darling anna.
Then came my army boy looking ever so sexy in his uniform. I so cannot believe he actually wore his uniform to town! silly boy.
Still handsome la, even when you're bald and smelly alright? LOVE LOVE LOVE.
Drop 20 ON me now! ;)

I hope we'll remain this way, if not better.
No more attitude swings, petty arguements, silly sarcasm, etc..

we're secretly in love

Party time over

2 days of drinking madness left me wanting more!!! I want more chalet's to come!!!
The first night was a killer. The Sengkang-girls (basically it's just min and i) wanna drink till we reach ultimate highness. I still have to say, Sengkang is better than Pasir ris!!
Anyway, i had a lil surprise from *you. =) You always pick the best time to surprise me. When i've drink, drank, half way drunk.
Well, good moments have to come to an end.

Read my lips, I don't bother anymore.
Call me when you've dumped your dirt away.

the tragic you

Somehow, i'm quite sick of you.
One moment there'll be butterflies in my tummy and the next, i just wanna give you one real hard slap. Your surprises are always sweet but your attitude swings are extremely irritating.
I will always be there for you and to care for you, but i'm no supergirl. I won't be there for long. I'm hanging on, but if my string breaks. You'll be missing me.
Honestly, i've lost the taste for love. Nothing seems real anymore. Trust will always be an issue, an issue i've never thought about.

So it's goodbye for now.

A lil too late for regrets

I was told many times to treasure the people you love and not take them for granted.
But i did it again.
Losing you hit me hard, real hard. Losing my grandma was supposedly harder, but i didn't cry as hard.
Maybe i was sorta prepared for this day, although her death came to me as a shock.
Just the day before she was bugging to eat lunch and when i reached home later that night, she was admitted to the hospital. Apparently, she had difficulty breathing and collapsed on her bed.

To watch her lying unconsciously on the hospital bed and there's nothing i can do but to prepare for the worse. I've never felt so helpless and lost before. All i can do is hold her hands, tell her how much i love her and she will always be my favourite grandma. Ah ma, i love you. Rest in peace.

Two grandparents have departed within 3 months, it gets harder each time.

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves. You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't? You want to be with someone who's a success. A person with the right job, right family, right clothes... In fights, you speak your mind and don't hold back. You know you're right, and you can get quite angry about it. You have a hard time ending relationships, even if the other person says it's over.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

miss grumps

I'm super super super cranky!
I'm sorry if i was grumpy towards you. I know that you're tired and grumpy too. The last thing you need is to hear that grumpy voice of mine. I guess i was too tired to even realise that i was talking to you in that manner. =/ (tiffy, pls remind me whenever i sound grumpy) I'll try not to be like this anymore. Now all i need is 2 days worth of sleep.

I miss your HAALLOOOOWWW's. =(
Without a proper 'hallooww' from you, our conversation would usually end off on a bad note.
I know i can't blame you but it's been 3 days since i last heard that special 'hallooow' of yours. Nomore late night chats, partying everynight, exchanging of silly dares, tickling your super sensitive neck, biting you as hard as possible, rap battling competition, staying at my fitness till 8 in the morning. =(
I hate the army!

12 more days

I'm counting down the days to your book out. I keep telling myself that 2 weeks will be over in no time, but it's only been 2 days and i'm already missing you like crazy crazy. =(

I miss you too.

w a i t i n g

Doing what we do best; stay up all morning, i am currently waiting for Leo to have her shower.
Back to back cartoon dvds
Smoke intervals and more chats.
This is just the beginning of a good needed holiday.

Let us all tie a yellow ribbon round' the old oak tree. :)

=( =)

It's been exactly a month and i've never felt happier. Incase you failed to notice, you mean a hell lot to me.

To my silly boy, thanks for surprising us at Momo last night. =)
OMG! i saw this guy with blood dripping down his face and after that, he got hit on his head with a glass. Miraculously, he was still shouting as though nothing had happened. Gawwwddd!
Yesterday turned out to be quite an emo night. Wanna how drama mama i tell you. Even dear tiffy can't help but tear a little. Haven't cried and felt like this in a long time.
As much as i hate to be the one to tell you, parting seemed to be the best option for me. I guess love is always selfish. Parting is never easy. To top it all off, Anna and Tiffy had to make me regret my actions. Woke up today feeling like shit. Anyway, i'm glad we're alright now. I'll be missing you while you're in camp, i know you would too. =) 2 weeks will be over in no time.

I hope things will look up for us.

Can't wait for Genting!!!!!!

zzzzzzzz

I have not slept in 2 days and i'm not in the best of mood.

A few days back, i was watching this movie called the 'Little Black Book'. It's one of the most meaningful shows i've ever seen. This show is a must watch.

You spend a lifetime preparing for a lifetime.

I've learnt to just keep moving on even if nothing is going your way. Everything happens for a reason and nomatter what, the man up there will always be looking out for us.

Never a perfect story

I will lay down in this puddle beside you, cause it's all that i can do.
So let's take our time with this, bleach the mud from off your shirt.
You make such an innocent mess in all of this.
It's hard for you, but it's harder for me.
I'll see us through, i know i can.

Trust me when i say i will be your happy pill. Lets start from friends, from the beginning. But i don't wanna stay that way. Cause seriously, i melt with you.
I feel comfortable with you too. Believe me when i say that i've been through everything you are going through now. It upsets me to hear you cry, to know that you're upset over her.
I'll be there for you, i'll be your best friend, i'll be your lover.

My Sexy Love

I'm over at Tiffy's place now and that sleepy head's asleep!!! Time to blog!

Alright, imagine going to the airport at 2am in the morning cause you find that the airport has the most condusive environment to get your work done. Not expecting to see anyone you know there. Needless to say, anyone you would NOT wish to see. But lucky me, i had to bump into you there. Especially after the whole 'me not being able to be your friend' arguement. I hated it when you flirt with other girls in the past and i still find it an eyesore now. I know it's very selfish of me but to me you'll always be mine, nomatter how disgusting i find you to be or how much i hate you now. That's why i can't bring myself to be your friend. As childish as it sounds, i can't deny it. Thanks for trying to talk to me. I'm sorry for my cold treatment, i just feel it's not the right time to talk to you yet. It's not you, it's me. Anyway, i left the airport a happy girl. Talked to Mr X till 10am in the morning. =)

23/24 Aug-
I wanna say that i had the time of my life on Sarah's birthday. Mr X decided to bring half of his crew to Pasir Ris. =))) Happiest! Crabbing at 5am in the morning, disturbing 7/11 auntie, talking to random indian workers, trying to find the api api ghost, waiting for pony rides and having the time of our lives. Mr X and his sidekick are the two most hilarious duo ever. Ok, i may be a little biased on this.
And yes, you are my sexy love cum mr silly boy.

I don't know what are we, but i do know that i really like you a HELL lot.
Your break-up came to me as a surprise, but this only means more of *you for me. =)
Pardon me for being evil.
I'll make US work out.

School's a killer!

It seems that things are looking up for me. All is good good good!!! =)
I hope it remains this way and something lovely will blossom.
You make me smile.

I have been staying up late and it has become a very bad habit. I don't wanna skip school but i simply can't wake up for it! Gawd! Apparently staying over at Sarah's helps me wake up for school. No, wait. Let me correct that, staying over at Sarah's WITHOUT sleeping helps me to get my down right lazy ass to school. My dear Lek has been staying up almost everynight to study and my duty when i stay over is to keep us both awake. Cause when Lek and Tan falls asleep = nwahhhhhh till the next evening when everybody's home from school.
I have loads of homework to complete!! School's a killer!!! Damn, too little time man. Plus my poor time management skills = homework NOT done.

Poor time management is due to long, super long talks on the phone with :
1) Sarah Lek
2) Tiffany Goh
3) Anna Seow
4) Mr X
Secondly, a couch potato like me will nwahh on my couch watching tv till there are no more shows to watch.
Thirdly, Miss Leona kaki jalan here can't stay at home all day. So she'll find herself getting ready to go out at odd hours.
Lastly, when i finally decide to do my friggin homework.... I'll be too tired to do so.


Oh, I would like to tell you that you're dead to me.
Goodbye to you.

happy me =)))

GUESS I'M NOT TOO LATE AFTER ALL!
I pray God would somehow answer my prayers. For now, it's all good. You make me a happy girl, so please please please don't disappoint me.

I'm not gonna read too much into it, but i'm praying for the best.
Something will blossom from this...

Tired, cranky, tired, cranky!!! Haven't slept since yesterday!! oh ma gawd!!!

rollercoaster ride.

It's been one helluva roller coaster ride for a short period of 6 days.
I thought i had it going on for me till today i guess.
Well, i believe in kharma too much for me to make my move.

I wanna be your friend and maybe a little more than that but everythings different now. It's been almost a year and somehow you will still appear in my thoughts.

My national day eve was great, though now things are not what i want it to be. My mind was so pre occupied for this past few days. I could be a bitch but i'd rather not risk it. Found him, now its time to lose him. Too much to handle, too hard to read, too late Leona.

LIFE'S A DAMN ROLLER COASTER RIDE. I would love it if it was all up up up but no, this is life.

Now it seems to me
That you know just what to say
But words are only words
Can you show me something else
Can you swear to me that you'll always be this way
Show me how you feel
More than ever baby

I don't wanna be lonely no more
I don't wanna have to pay for this
I don't want to know the lover at my door
Is just another heartache on my list
I don't wanna be angry no more
You know I could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me know for sure
I don't want to be lonely anymore

Now its hard for me with my heart still on the mend
Open up to me, like you do your girlfriends
And you sing to me and it's harmony
Girl, what you do to me is everything
Make me say anything; just to get you back again
Why can't we just try
What if I was good to you, what if you were good to me
What if I could hold you till I feel you move inside of me
What if it was paradise, what if we were symphonies
What if I gave all my life to find some way to stand beside you

Just saw this song on MTV. I love the way the scene changes when he touches something.
Now that i'm in lasalle, i'd better be more arty farty.