i'm a faithful lover =)

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything! You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

It’s too late now, still I’ve got something to say
I’m sorry that I treated you that way
Time has gone now, and the moment has passed
When I had the chance to try and make us last
All alone now, and it’s no one’s fault by mine
Couldn’t see the truth, I had those blinded eyes
You have moved on, still I don’t give a damn
Gotta get this off my chest while I can
How I need you more and more will you come back to me please
Every single hour of every single day, I miss you more and more
Don’t know what to say
I Know I closed the door, You’re gone and on your way
But now, I need you, I need you
Wanna take it back to the day when we first met
If I could, I’d start all over again
Our love is My Regret
Should have known then, what I know now
Dying every second that you’re not around
Should have been there, when you needed me
Now I’m by myself, on my bended knees
Should have loved you, while I had the chance to
Couldn’t realize that you were the truth
Should have shown you, what you meant to me
Baby now I see, that you were my everything.

I think all lizards should DIE

My highlight of the day; I SAW A FUCKING LIZARD CRAWLING INTO MY HOUSE!!
I was so friggin scared that i almost bit my finger off. Clumsily, i ran pass my front door and into my maid's room to wake her up. Apparently, she's scared of lizards too. Damn! But i don't care, that darn lizard has to die!!! So she bravely used her slippers to kill that god forsaken lizard. yay! now that deserves a clap and a pat on her back. =) Now i'm able to sleep in peace.

Anyway, Tiffy darling stayed over yesterday. Supposed to watch miami vice together but she ended up sleeping on the couch half way through. =/ Guess we'll just hafta postpone our dvd marathon night.

You said she's just a friend, but it's a frigging lie. I know i shouldn't even care or meddle in your affairs anymore but somehow there's a part of me that will hold on to you forever. Forever might not be the word, but it's been so long and you're still constantly on my mind which makes it seem like 'forever'. Although i'm emotionally numb to everything and had just about enough of you, i can't seem to give up.
Maybe it's my kharma. I know throughout our relationship you gave me unconditional love and i took you for granted, but i think my kharma's gotta end now. It's been a year and my heart's still with you.
My regret/mistake - Loving you or taking you for granted, i don't know.
If this is 'Love', i would love 'Love' to leave me alone.

//will you love me like yesterday again and never let me go?

Bored = ME

WIL'S SURPRISE BIRTHDAY PARTY.

I'm home on a friday night and i'm bored outta my wits! Thank god for Leon lee and his super nonsense yet entertaining conversation. I miss that sng buay face and our sng buay days. Not forgetting our juicy gooooosipppsss!=)

I love and you lie. what have become of you? says:
i thought you died
death. says:
sad ah you?
I love and you lie. what have become of you? says:
no la y?
death. says:
i die you not sad/
death. says:
SMLJ!
I love and you lie. what have become of you? says:
whats smlj?
death. says:
simi lan jiao. i'll seriously spank you lor.
I love and you lie. what have become of you? says:
hahahahhaa ok la damn sad can
death. says:
haha! almost forget me lor you.
I love and you lie. what have become of you? says:
no! YOU HAVE FORGOTTEN ALL ABOUT ME!
death. says:
leona tan.
death. says:
the hottest bitch on earth, how to forgeT?
I love and you lie. what have become of you? says:
THANKS i knew it! hahaha
I love and you lie. what have become of you? says:
when are you coming back?!
death. says:
SECRET.
death. says:
just promise to make time for me and promise not to break that promise.
I love and you lie. what have become of you? says:
I PROMISE!!!

HE TAUGHT ME A NEW WORD, BULLSPIT. HOW CUTE IS THAT?!

life's a bitch, so am i.

Tripping over myself, going no where.
Waiting, suffocating, no direction, i took a dive in.
I've been wondering why, it's only me.
Have you always been inside waiting to breathe.
It's alright, sunlight on my face.
I wake up and yeah, i'm alive, 'cause on the way down i saw you & you saved me from myself & i won't forget the way you loved me.

I won't forget the way you loved me.

I totally screwed up last night. As usual, Leona was pissed drunk. Wobbled around phuture, almost caused a fight, slept outside my doorstep, couldn't even bathe properly.
My mum said i'm an embarrassment to my family and i'm grounded. hurray for me.
I spent the whole of today just thinking, if only i could turn back time then all these wouldn't have happened. If only i could just know my limits, then i wouldn't have drank so much. The thing about me is that when i'm high, i simply do not know my limits so i continue drinking till i'm wasted. If only *you were still here to look after me like how you used to, when i'm dead drunk and i can't even stand straight, you'll be there to bathe me and tuck me in nicely to bed.
I seriously think i'm a screw up and i'm only good at embarrassing myself.
Time to wake up and kick all that bad habits.
No more obsessive drinking, no more frequent clubbing, no more, no more, no more!
Now lets drink to that. haha.

moody toody me

It's one of those days that you don't wanna do anything except just staying at home and nwahhhh in front of the tv.
I've been watching The Hills for like 3 hours straight! Gawd! I'm feeling so fucking irritated now.

It's been almost 3 months and i'm still left hanging. I hate this feeling, ALOT!
YOU should just know who's good for you and who's not. I totally understand what you're going through right now and i've told you many times that i'll be there for you, but i still need some assurance from you. fuckfuckfuck.
I'm not gonna bother or think about it anymore.

Somehow when thing's are not going the way i want us to be, i tend to fall back on *you.
I know i shouldn't be feeling this way but i can't help it. I miss *you still but i only can look back on our past.
The love between us has died but *you still occupy a place in my heart.

Sharing is caring.
Therefor, bitching about other sluts means we care for our friends. =)
OMG! Darling Sann just linked me the blog's of 2 sluts.
The first slut has body odour, looks like a man and no fucking idea who the fuck she's messing with.
(Excuse me miss BO, the next time you try to fuck a man, MAKE DAMN SURE HE ISN'T MY ANDREW KOH.)
The other slut fantasizes bout other people boyfriends(boys that will NEVER lay eyes on her), think she's some hot chick that has what it takes to seduce every man she desires(my poor STEWPID e**** was one of her victim) and she so happen to look like a man too.

Anyway, my darling Tiffy came over and it's gonna be dvd night for us! yay!




/I still do miss you, but this time i'm missing not one but two/

don't tell me

Please think it through, have a lil faith in me.
You mean alot to me and i'll do anything to set things right.
I know you have been trying and so have i, but sometimes temptation gets the better of me.
You might say there's no excuse and you wouldn't do the same, but this is different.
Trust me, i'm not that kinda girl and i'm certainly not like her.
Try to understand me like how i've been trying to understand you.
I'm sorry, leave this behind and start over?
Things have been going great for us, please don't give up now.
I knew the mistake i was making but only until now, i truly regret.
I don't wanna lose you, my heart's set on you.

Cause if you were my best friend, I want you 'round all the time(I want you 'round me baby)
Can I be your best friend, I promise boy you'll be mine(Oooh baby be mine)
I said he's just a friend, baby it's not pretend
Either he is or he ain't my man, I said he's just a friend
You said that I could call you whenever I needed someone to listen to me
That's why I'm here standin by your side cause you always come through for me
So many others tried to be where you are but they just wanted to do me
Glad you took your time and now I'm satisfied that's why I want you all to me
We been better than friends, for a long time
Ain't no need to pretend, you'll always be mine

50 cent feat. olivia - Bestfriend

Please don't take my sunshine away

You still never fail to put a smile on my face, but this time i've gotta admit that i went overboard.
It was nice while it lasted, now i'm faced with regrets.

MY sexy army boy

I'm supposed to be asleep by now. 5 more hours till wild wild wet!!!
I swear i'm gonna wake up late again, as usual.
Leona what, 10 million miss calls and she's still soundly asleep. =)
Anyway, was in town in the evening to meet darling anna.
Then came my army boy looking ever so sexy in his uniform. I so cannot believe he actually wore his uniform to town! silly boy.
Still handsome la, even when you're bald and smelly alright? LOVE LOVE LOVE.
Drop 20 ON me now! ;)

I hope we'll remain this way, if not better.
No more attitude swings, petty arguements, silly sarcasm, etc..

we're secretly in love

Party time over

2 days of drinking madness left me wanting more!!! I want more chalet's to come!!!
The first night was a killer. The Sengkang-girls (basically it's just min and i) wanna drink till we reach ultimate highness. I still have to say, Sengkang is better than Pasir ris!!
Anyway, i had a lil surprise from *you. =) You always pick the best time to surprise me. When i've drink, drank, half way drunk.
Well, good moments have to come to an end.

Read my lips, I don't bother anymore.
Call me when you've dumped your dirt away.

the tragic you

Somehow, i'm quite sick of you.
One moment there'll be butterflies in my tummy and the next, i just wanna give you one real hard slap. Your surprises are always sweet but your attitude swings are extremely irritating.
I will always be there for you and to care for you, but i'm no supergirl. I won't be there for long. I'm hanging on, but if my string breaks. You'll be missing me.
Honestly, i've lost the taste for love. Nothing seems real anymore. Trust will always be an issue, an issue i've never thought about.

So it's goodbye for now.

A lil too late for regrets

I was told many times to treasure the people you love and not take them for granted.
But i did it again.
Losing you hit me hard, real hard. Losing my grandma was supposedly harder, but i didn't cry as hard.
Maybe i was sorta prepared for this day, although her death came to me as a shock.
Just the day before she was bugging to eat lunch and when i reached home later that night, she was admitted to the hospital. Apparently, she had difficulty breathing and collapsed on her bed.

To watch her lying unconsciously on the hospital bed and there's nothing i can do but to prepare for the worse. I've never felt so helpless and lost before. All i can do is hold her hands, tell her how much i love her and she will always be my favourite grandma. Ah ma, i love you. Rest in peace.

Two grandparents have departed within 3 months, it gets harder each time.

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves. You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't? You want to be with someone who's a success. A person with the right job, right family, right clothes... In fights, you speak your mind and don't hold back. You know you're right, and you can get quite angry about it. You have a hard time ending relationships, even if the other person says it's over.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

miss grumps

I'm super super super cranky!
I'm sorry if i was grumpy towards you. I know that you're tired and grumpy too. The last thing you need is to hear that grumpy voice of mine. I guess i was too tired to even realise that i was talking to you in that manner. =/ (tiffy, pls remind me whenever i sound grumpy) I'll try not to be like this anymore. Now all i need is 2 days worth of sleep.

I miss your HAALLOOOOWWW's. =(
Without a proper 'hallooww' from you, our conversation would usually end off on a bad note.
I know i can't blame you but it's been 3 days since i last heard that special 'hallooow' of yours. Nomore late night chats, partying everynight, exchanging of silly dares, tickling your super sensitive neck, biting you as hard as possible, rap battling competition, staying at my fitness till 8 in the morning. =(
I hate the army!

12 more days

I'm counting down the days to your book out. I keep telling myself that 2 weeks will be over in no time, but it's only been 2 days and i'm already missing you like crazy crazy. =(

I miss you too.

w a i t i n g

Doing what we do best; stay up all morning, i am currently waiting for Leo to have her shower.
Back to back cartoon dvds
Smoke intervals and more chats.
This is just the beginning of a good needed holiday.

Let us all tie a yellow ribbon round' the old oak tree. :)

=( =)

It's been exactly a month and i've never felt happier. Incase you failed to notice, you mean a hell lot to me.

To my silly boy, thanks for surprising us at Momo last night. =)
OMG! i saw this guy with blood dripping down his face and after that, he got hit on his head with a glass. Miraculously, he was still shouting as though nothing had happened. Gawwwddd!
Yesterday turned out to be quite an emo night. Wanna how drama mama i tell you. Even dear tiffy can't help but tear a little. Haven't cried and felt like this in a long time.
As much as i hate to be the one to tell you, parting seemed to be the best option for me. I guess love is always selfish. Parting is never easy. To top it all off, Anna and Tiffy had to make me regret my actions. Woke up today feeling like shit. Anyway, i'm glad we're alright now. I'll be missing you while you're in camp, i know you would too. =) 2 weeks will be over in no time.

I hope things will look up for us.

Can't wait for Genting!!!!!!

zzzzzzzz

I have not slept in 2 days and i'm not in the best of mood.

A few days back, i was watching this movie called the 'Little Black Book'. It's one of the most meaningful shows i've ever seen. This show is a must watch.

You spend a lifetime preparing for a lifetime.

I've learnt to just keep moving on even if nothing is going your way. Everything happens for a reason and nomatter what, the man up there will always be looking out for us.