I'm a jealous fuck.
Winning isn't everything, but everything's bout winning to me.
I'd be grateful if you were dead.

This bloody teddy bear scare the shit outta me when i went to my staircase for a smoke. It's life-size by the way. Damn.

With regards to my previous entry, it was just random lyrics that i found somewhat meaningful. No emo-momo from me. I've been doing great. Life couldn't get any more monotonous. But i don't need those drama and 'excitement'. The thought of hitting the big 2 0 is already a big blow to me. Call me auntie thank you.

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop
Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let her win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know
It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop
This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here